I still remember 3 years ago I was about to attend another friends wedding and wondered if my day would ever come. It seemed as though all my friends had boyfriends and I was the only single girl. I would watch as more and more got taken off the market and I would be alone on Fridays having nothing to do. I started going out more and making new friends. I would always say something like "I never want to have a guy to take me away from this" or "I am too busy for someone, I just need my school and friends." Truth was I was so lonely I tried to deny it, and watching my friends me happy just made it worse.
I have noticed in the last year more and more people becoming engaged on facebook. We have hit the age when we start to get married. I can only imagine how many save the dates some people must get, and to be single and watching everyone move on must suck. I would think it sucks. Hell, I do think it sucks. I still feel that pain and I am almost ashamed to be part of it.
But what I am to do? Do I cancel my wedding? Do I give up my happiness for others? Normally I would say yes, but in a year or two no one will care if I got married or not. They are not upset at the fact that I am getting married just that they feel alone. I wish they didn't feel alone, but I can not change that.
Funny thing about this is, none of my friends are engaged. Besides myself I do not know anyone getting married. I feel alone. I feel like everyone else is either in the fun single stage of life or they have just begun to date someone. I feel like the weirdo, the odd ball. Some people feel weird for being single, I feel weird for being engaged. I just wish that I knew more people getting married. I wish I was not alone in this boat.
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| When did I become one of *THOSE* girls. I mean look even one of my ads is about weddings. |
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